March 2013
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November 2012
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Republican supporter call
So I am proudly registered as a democrat, my parents are respectively republicans however they still voted for Obama. Anyways, I had an interesting phone call from a republican supporter asking us to go cast our votes and the conversation went a little like this…(R = republican supporter, M= me)
R: hi, my name is …I see that your family is registered as Republicans and have not voted...
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The unknown future...
As I made a big decision to go back to school for a 2ndary bachelor’s I’m beginning to wonder, ‘what the hell’ ami suppose to do with my life. I think after college we can all agree on the fact that we will always be burdened by the future, simply because of the uncertainty behind it, the responsibilities we have to face as adults, and the learning to really detach urselves...
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September 2012
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Curveballs
Life is very funny. Right when u don’t expect it, life throws a curveball at you. Never would i thought to fall for a girl like her. Quiet, more stubborn than myself, needs to enroll in charm school more than anyone. She eats with her hands when she finds utensils inconvenience. Everything i am not. Everything i could mever be i find in her. She is my other half. Rachel if u read...
August 2012
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July 2012
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Been a while.
Its been a while since I typed in here, my gf keeps me very busy. But here I’m going to write yet another sappy note….
If u asked me how much I live her, I can honestly say, more than myself. I’ve only fallen in love 2x. I’m sorry for having a hard time trusting my heart with you. Please understand that I am trying. I’ve been so broken, that u can just blow my...
May 2012
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April 2012
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We've came a long way...
We’ve come a long way.
We’ve had our bad days, but most days we do pretty well.
Knowing that you are in my life helps me work harder to gain us a better future.
Lots has happen in the last week.
My grandfather is dying, my dad was in the hospital.
First time in a long time I felt confused and not able to control my emotions.
I had you to calm me down.
I had you to be strong for...
March 2012
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“I just want you, only you, no one else but you. I want us to be together, have...”
– VirtuousFaith (what I said to my gf las night)
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February 2012
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Making u breakfast
I call because I want to hear your voice. Even though I know ur half asleep.
I show up to ur resturaunt on days u are working bc I get to see just a little bit longer.
Even when we’re sleeping, I kiss ur face, rub my nose against yours. And hold u as u hold me back, because that’s when I just want u to feel my lovin and I can feel urs.
But sometimes I wonder if I do enough? Or if...
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I'm selfish
I’m selfish, especially when it has to do with my happiness. Does it mean I don’t care about my family? Does it mean it came easy on me when they found out and they tried to set me up on blind dates with men? Or when they thought medicine and herbal tea and make me straight? Or how bout blessing me at temple or giving me weird necklaces and charms in hope of making me...
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Not sleeping
Every night or middle of the night or early in the morning my gf always tells me to sleep or go to sleep or go back to sleep. The other night she asked me why don’t I ever sleep when she asks me to. It never crossed her mind as to why I don’t wanna sleep when she next to me. So here’s why:
1. I don’t wanna miss a thing with you even with one awaken moment.
2. While you...
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Deeper meaning
(as we laid in bed)
Me: hey, come here.
R: (lays down) what?
(I closed my eyes and I felt her face, using my fingers to feel how the outline of her eyes, nose, lips are mapped out on her. As I was doing that I had tears running down my facee. Then I kissed her)
Me: I love you.
(she started tearing up, held me tightly and kissed me and just kept staring at me as we wiped each others tears. I...
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First time she told me she loved me.
(we were in Tallahassee, after the Chinese new year banquet, jan 21. Sat 2012. We went to level 8 lounge which was in the same hotel we stayed at. She got super drunk, and I had to carry her back into our hotel room. She said down on the floor back leaning against the bed, as she complains how drunk she was. I'm trying to tidy up the room.)
R: C!!!!! Come kiss me!
Me: i will baby, give me a sec. I gotta Pack up some of our luggage.
(I'm walking around the room and cleaning)
R: I love you C.
(I stood there frozen with my back facing her. I turn around with her clothes in my hand.)
Me: What did you just say?
(I put down everything and crouched down to sit very closely in front of her)
R: (wraps her arms around my neck) I love you.
Me: (can't control my tears from streaming out bc of joy, our foreheads are touching) I really hope, that this is not the alcohol talking, because if it is, I'll hate you so much for just throwing that word around.
R: (hugs me) no, I know what I am saying, I'm very conscious, even though I'm drunk.
(pulls back to look at me, at this point I have tears trickling down in controllabley)
I am yours, and you are mine. I love you and I mean it.
(quiet for 5minutes of just kissing hahaha)
Me: I love you R.
R: I love you too.
I know this is super sappy but I don't give a fuck, I wanna remember this.
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January 2012
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“I don’t smoke, I don’t do drugs, I’m not a convict, or a...”
– VirtuousFaith (how I explained to my mother when I came out that there’s nothing wrong of me)
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“Like robots, love has it’s glitches. Sometimes we even have to take it...”
– Daniel Piña (my buddy pineapple)
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why not?
She always asks, why I like her so much, she asks me not to be too nice to her. The thing is I can’t help myself to be nice to her. I can’t find enough words to explain why I like her so much. actually when I look into the the dictionary, I don’t even think there’s enough descriptive words in Webster for me to jot down how I feel about her. I know a couple of things. Is...
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unspoken
As much as she frustrates me sometimes, I know that I can’t seem to go by a day without hearing her voice or seeing her. Everything about her puts a smile on my face. When she worries about me, when she is confused. When she doesn’t understand something, the way she laughs and smiles. The way she falls asleep on the phone. The way she sounds when she first wakes up. The way she...
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Lucky, I got sick.
so everyone’s probably wondering, how the eff am I lucky I got sick? Well, it’s a good and bad feeling. Bad, bc…duh! I’m sick. But good bc my gf was taking care of me. I’m very lucky. Bc even though she’s tends to forget the details of things, but she tries… That’s all I want. Is that she tries. She really is the star that lights my way. She makes me...
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感冒了我。。。
對啊， 我真的感冒了。 我陵园我病都不想妳病。 因為如果妳病的話，我不想妳突然發我脾氣， 也不想妳罵我。哈哈哈開玩笑吧。 其實我難受，我不想妳難受，只想妳活得好，活得開心。
所以就算我感冒，我都想見到妳溫柔的笑容。 所以我也會做一點小動作來把妳開心。
妳說， 雖然妳是家理的大姐， 但是不懂怎麼照顧人。也跟我說妳佷操心大意，但又想照顧我。
其實, as long as you try ur best, I’m already very happy. 妳就是我感冒得最好得medicine.
Here to say, thank you for taking care of me and being by me.
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跟著我...
妳不是騙我嗎?…我不是一個很好騙的人…我會好容易受到傷害…我知道我很小氣…我會付出很多在妳身上…但是有是我不知道妳想什麼…我也怕問妳,因為我怕妳會怎麼回答我…我會很緊張妳…也會常常擔心妳…我做什麼東西,我會不知不覺想起妳然後傻笑…可能是因為….我開始越來越更愛妳…不可以控制我自己.
December 2011
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2011
Hmm.. Where to start…well. 2011 has treat me very fairly. Lots of ups and downs, bit nothong i couldnt handle. The year was rough in the beginning but i got to travel. See a lot and experienced alot. Saw a lot of old faces. Most definitley met a lot of new faces. The year didnt take a rocket up until october. I got a new job that changed my life with one of the biggest and richest companies...
“I wanna become a flowerpot that sits in ur windowsill.
Though I can’t...”
– From the song “flowerpot” by Alex Choi(from clazziquai)
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Interpretation of a dream.
last night I had a very strange dream....I dreamt that my gf and I went on a trip and my ex was there too by coincidence. There was a moment when my ex and I was standing outside of the hotel and she holds my hand and cries.
K: I still love you, (hugs me) can we just start all over again?
Me: yes...(hug her back)
Then I thought of R, and I snapped myself out of it. And push my ex away.
Me: wait...I can't. I'm sorry, I have R now. And as much as I loved you, I can't anymore, bc my heart belongs to her now. I love her now, and only her.
K: what if I gave u time?
Me: doesn't matter, she's the one I want to be with. I can't be with someone who use to be so close but has become such a stranger to me now. I can't be with someone who once broke my heart to the point where I thought it was incurable. Until I met R.
K: but she frustrates and upsets u.
Me: that maybe so, but we talk everything through, we communicate very well with each other. All the troubles we have, we work together on it. That's always something I can only pray for, and she does that.
This dream was a very interesting wake up call, bc for sec...I let myself get sucked into something, but I pulled out bc I know now for sure, that whatever happened in the past, I've already let her go, and I'm ready to face the good time and tough times with a new partner. It's a good feeling : )
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New year resolutions...
1. Love myself more.
2. Let go of my insecurities.
3. Not let myself be so vulnerable.
4. Shrug off little things bc there’s bigger things happening in the wold.
5. Lose my belly fat so I can look even sexier in my clothes.
6. Try not to put others before me, because in the end, I’m the only person that can save myself.
7. Go to Europe or a cruise…..or both
8. Control my...
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Moments to live for
Me: why r u sticking to me like that.
R: (judo leg wraps my leg and holds me) bc I like to.
Me: ...ok...(turns and hold her and whispers) I want to hold u like this everyday...(headbutt her lightly) I love you. (light kiss on her lips)
R: thank you...(hold me tighter and closer)
Me: for what?
R: for loving me.
She may not be perfect, she may be lazy and not text or call me back. She may fall asleep on me when I talk to her. But she will forever and always be beautiful. Just like these moments, they r beautiful. I try to understand her from her point, maybe I shouldn't be so uptight, I wish I can relax. This is my 2nd relationship. I'm just as scared as she is, I'm scared I'll screw up. I'm scared history will repeat itself. I know I have trust and insecurity issues, but it takes time for me to loosen back up. I've been single for the last 4 years. This is also gonna take some getting use to on my end. Maybe I should just lighten up. But I don't want her to think that I'm not thinking of her when I'm out and about my business. I am always thinking bout her.
Its crazy how fate can bring two totally different people together. Ive lived in soflo for a long ass time…have a rep thats pretty built and settled in the asian community…especially with the asians around my age. Never would i thought i would meet her. She stumbled into my life. And never would i ever think id catch such a bright and beautiful star. The one that shines in my heart....
